I work with computers and our job has the absolute bare minimum of recording things down for the twelve hours you’re working and making sure stuff isn’t on fire (metaphorically), and you could fuck off and go on youtube until your relief arrives. Sprinkle in like 15 or 30 minutes of “goals” that our leadership wants us to hit and you complete the bare minimum of our job.

I’m the lead for my team and we make sure we tick the necessary boxes and we do what we gotta do with the half-assed guidance that we have, which usually creates problems in future, but we get it done. Other teams barely even try, it’s dumbfounding, hell, I rotate out soon and I’m trying to pass on all this knowledge I’ve gained to my newer team mates and, in one ear out the other.

I also get the saying “If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it”, and I probably violate that saying too much, but is it too much to ask for clarified or updated guidance, or to update SOPs that are going on 7 years old with ranging information from valuable to outdated. Having to shake the tree anytime or chase down or annoy someone anytime you need/want something done.

It’s so demoralizing to have a mission manager who only cares about one aspect of the job, when the job has multiple aspects. So much disorganization in a our shop that it creates differing knowledge levels between teams, and general confusion overall. Or people that are older than you, that just don’t listen to you and kind of do what they want.

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I love my job, it’s cool and always changing, it keeps me on my toes and interested. I’m just tired of actually caring and nothing changing. At the end of the day, I’m probably just some over zealous operator that thinks he knows better, and drives everyone insane with my questions, and going way out of my depth. Hell you could probably write me down as some annoying moto guy who finds work for himself, that may or may not be useful. I’m just so tired of trying to do good and extra for no one to match the energy, I guess.

Hell one of my older team members hit me with, “Why are you doing that, you know it’s useless, they don’t check it anyways, so who are doing it for, it gets deleted anyways?” “You’re just wasting energy on it, for no one to do anything with it.” On a consistent basis and ya know it’s getting to me

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Context: I have 2 Chain of Commands, operations and military, and attached to an agency. We work 12 hours panamas. I’m 21 and more an office worker than in the military. I think I’m doing good job leading my team, but ya know I’ve been doubting myself more recently. For most of the teams and myself this is their first duty station in a joint service environment, with varying ages and backgrounds.

Edit: I forgot to add that we are the only team that produces results and then a little extra, by the extra shit I do sometimes, which isn’t that hard to do, but other teams just don’t have the motivation to learn it or ask questions. It makes leadership happy, but ya know nothing changes even when I ask.